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Beauty in Black
28 July 2005 @ 05:39 pm
I hate this.

I hate this.

I hate this.

I FUCKING HATE THIS.

Did I mention that I hate this?

I have tonsillitis..

I hate this!!
 
 
Current Mood: angryHATING THIS
 
 
Beauty in Black
06 May 2005 @ 08:13 am
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Current Mood: hornyhorny
Current Music: Mallrats on TV
 
 
Beauty in Black
13 June 2004 @ 11:50 pm
This has been one of the best weeks I've had in months. Spent it with Dan, just doing all kinds of things, mostly just spending time together and bonding all over again. So far things are going very well. We're happy, we're not arguing, and all of our friends can just hang out share common pleasure of one another's company. Jeff and Brandon make it a much more relaxed environment, as well as the company of James (Jerk Rat). Kon seems civil, although Troy had me worried. But so far Dan has not shown any signs of turning back or been to lead to resort to sudden and unexplained abandonment.

I've spent the last few nights and it feels so good to be in his arms again and wake up next to him in the morning. Went on an inspection with him today ,and we drove all the way to bloomfield to do a driveby but the people living there were being porch monkeys so we couldn't take the picture. I was gonna stick my head out the window and take the pictures as we went by because it's a very busy street and we couldn't stop.

Went to my parent's for dinner. Everyone was happy to see him.

What else did we do this weekend? Saw Shrek II which was awesome. I thought it was so cool-especially with little Puss in Boots. I love that cat! *mew*

Um... hung out Saturday with Kon and Dan Decker before they went to Seaside. I wanted to go so badly rather than work when the weather was absolutely GORGEOUS. But Dan picked me up after work and spent the night again. :).

I'm getting trained for Photo Lab pretty soon-means a raise for me :) and in another 4 months I get another raise :-D

Work is good. I think I'll stay at CVS a little longer.

So I am quite the happy camper right now. Everything is just starting to fall into place. Much less chaotic and stressful and I'm just generally happy and content with my life right now. Genuinely happy and content. I love Dan and I love my friends and everyone who has stood by us while we got some shit from some people. But Dan was very stern and stood up for me.

So I'm confident that everything will be alright.

Anyway I'm gonna go back to playing Soul Calibur, stop being so antisocial and then go to sleep and go to work.

Later :)
 
 
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: Soul Calibur in the living room..Wanna play!!
 
 
Beauty in Black
07 June 2004 @ 06:45 pm
Been bored and a little depressed lately. I guess I'm just lonely.

But I'm doing the best I can to distract myself and keep my mind preoccupied with other things, but when the day finally slows down and I'm alone, it hits hard. I miss Brandon, I miss my old friends, I miss having someone with me.

Whatever. Not much I can do about that. I'm not exactly the most sought after female in the bunch. Oh well.

Keep on truckin'.

Probably going to the beach with mom tomorrow-that should cheer me up a bit.
 
 
Current Mood: lonelylonely
Current Music: Lacuna Coil-Heaven's A Lie
 
 
Beauty in Black
25 March 2004 @ 04:49 pm
Hey kiddies..

Work was hellish today-people are such assholes..Retail sucks -_-. oh well.

Went to the house last night for Tammy's birthday..that was cool. Talked with Brandon for a few hours..he says when I go out there we could get an apartment so we'd have more privacy-(he lives upstairs from his cousin and her boyfriend, Adam) we'd get a roomate, of course..probably his friend Tony who is supposedly dying to meet me. Heh. what fun.

As mentioned before, my deadline is still set for the 31st. Brandon worries that when I get there it might be a bit chaotic..because he has so much to do, and I said to him that I didn't care,because he knows he'd have my help and comfort. I WILL keep my deadline.

I can't wait to see him and be with him.I'm so happy. Happier than I've been in quite some time.

blah..I'm tired and my feet hurt.

I'm gonna go lay down and then have dinner.

Later.
 
 
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Honey playing with a squeaky toy upstairs
 
 
 
Beauty in Black
19 March 2004 @ 01:17 pm
Blah  
Woke up today with a headache..still have one.

Everyone's too busy to go to Q's this weekend *pout* Me sad Rae.

Got work 2-10 Saturday and Sunday John is taking me to get my tongue pierced. ROCK.
 
 
Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: Silence is Golden
 
 
Beauty in Black
17 November 2003 @ 08:08 pm
FUCK GOD.



FUCK IT ALL.


....he doesnt want me. It wasn' right he says. Fuck this.



JUST GO AWAY.


If only I had the guts to just off myself. But I don't. damn I hate being a fucking coward!